My 3 Monsters: Calling Myself Out

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8.20.2009

Calling Myself Out

If you've read my blog for with any regularity you know that I struggle with my weight. I do. I've never been a "skinny-minny". At my best, I'm athletically built. Dense. I weigh more than I look like I do. At my best. Right now . . . not at the top of my game . . . I look every bit of my actual weight. (You thought I was going to say the number, didn't you? Nuh, uh,uh.) It's an all-time high for me. Even nine months pregnant with my third child I was 20 pounds lighter than I am today. I've outgrown my wedding rings. Whatever. It is what it is. I can't change what I've done. But I can change what I'm doing now. No excuses. I eat too much and I don't work out. I've done the math. I don't need to feel sorry for myself. (I don't.) I don't need a competition or a silly "diet". (They don't work for me.) You see, at the end of the day it's not my size that troubles me, per se. It's the fact that I'm not being proactive about my health. What I need is some accountability. So, I'm telling you.

I'm committing right now to work out 6 days a week. I'm committing now to trade in my beloved Coke for water. But also, I'm committing to feel good about myself no matter what the number on the scale says. Please all, as my friends, don't allow me to whine to you about not liking my body or being "fat" and "lazy". Don't shower me with undeserved sympathy and kindness when I skip workouts, because I will try to let you do that. Don't talk me into believing that the status quo is good enough. It's not. (And if you see my husband please tell him the rules, too, since he may not read this.) I hope I'll lose a little weight, but maybe not. At least I'll be doing something. And rest assured, I'll post again to let you know how it's going.

4 comments:

  1. Lace up those running shoes. You know what hitting the pavement can do...you've done it before.

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  2. You can (and will) do anything you set your mind to. I know you. You go girl. And, I totally understand where you're coming from.

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  3. Just a crazy idea, but I've had a goal for a while now of getting to the gym on campus 5 days a week and recently I set a goal to do some form of cardio everyday too. I could start calling you guys every once in a while so we can both report to each other on how we did with our goals. I can even pretend to get mad at you if you missed any days!!

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  4. Sweet! verbal abuse is almost always the answer. I'd love it if you called. Talk to you soon!

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