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8.04.2014

Life

Well, friends . . . we survived.  The first day back  to school, I mean, but actually so much more.  Usually this is the day I look forward to all summer long.  The day in which, under normal circumstances, I celebrate having a little more freedom . . . quietly.  In my quiet home.  By myself.  Quietly.  Sometimes quiet is just what the doctor ordered after a long, hot, busy, noisy summer.  And it is wonderful.

And then other times you take a job as a school health assistant and you go back to school right along with your children.  You dive head first into the noise and chaos that is public elementary school.  You find yourself swimming in the deep waters of full-time employment for the first time in nearly 17 years.  And it is scary and overwhelming, and you wonder if you might drown.  But it is also a little bit wonderful.

These past two or three weeks have been a roller coaster ride for our family.  I was blind-sided by this job opportunity.  A friend {who is the assistant principal of the school} texted to see if I would even be interested in applying.  I applied, thinking that they would never hire a craft blogger with a degree in interior design to be a school "nurse".  And then they did.  I was thrilled, but doubt quickly crept in, as it tends to do.  I was tempted to quit before I even started.  Really tempted.  I had to keep reminding myself that I can do hard things.

Seven and a half years ago I didn't want to learn all about caring for a diabetic 5 year old, but I did it.  It was really, really hard and I did it anyway.  Now it's just normal.  I can't even remember what life was like before this.  My life's experiences -- the really hard ones -- have given me a lot of what I need to do this job.

So I started working last Thursday.  I was already feeling a little overwhelmed with the newness of the situation and being out of the home for the first time since I had kids as the texts from my husband started rolling in on my first day.  "No need to worry, but the car won't start."  "The latch on the driver side door is broken now.  Hope your day is going great."  {Our passenger side door decided to stop working a week and a half ago.} "Good news. There are scorpions in the garage." {We've lived here for 12 years and have never seen a scorpion. So now -- NOW -- they decide to move in?}  And then the kicker  -- "My dad has had a stroke." 

REALLY?!  I mean, come on.  Really?  How much can people be expected to bear before they just snap right in half?  I've struggled all weekend with feelings of worry and anxiety, sorrow for others and feeling downright sorry for myself.  I got up this morning and headed in to work -- my first day with actual students to care for -- and everything was forgotten as I soothed a scared Kindergartner and celebrated a little kiddo's lost tooth.  I spent my entire day helping others instead of focusing on myself and my problems, and THAT was just what the doctor ordered today. 

Even though I've seen it time and time again in my life, it never ceases to amaze me how things seem to fall into place in the most unexpected ways.  I truly believe that God, our Heavenly Father, is watching over me.  And you.  Each of us.  He helps us to face the challenges life will bring, but not always in the ways we think He should.  I never imagined that, rather than being a burden, my new job -- the one I never planned on having and wasn't sure I wanted -- would be what eased the other burdens I hadn't even seen coming.

Life is miraculous.  And terrifying.  Sometimes just plain hard.  But we aren't in it alone and for that I am profoundly grateful.

Have a great day, friends!

Amy


2 comments:

  1. What a wonderful blessing. Thank you for sharing! It never ceases to amaze me how the sacrifices turn into blessings.

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  2. Amy, thanks for sharing that. I needed to hear that today! What a cool and fun job for you! I feel like you will be perfect at it. Miss you guys :(
    -Kellie McDonald

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